[Picture credit: Spotlight by Rose Wong]
Been stuck in my head a lot recently so decided to do something to make it more fun but now regret it a little bit not that much though.
Missing and postponing doctor appointments which I recognize is a bad sign so making it a point to make it to one tomorrow and schedule another one with the other one.
Decided to stop my online shopping habit. As bad as crack cocaine I swear.
Going to NY to visit my sister this weekend. Taking me to go see Rent for an early graduation present. Excited. Never seen a Broadway musical.
Parents getting excited about my graduation. Knocking on wood. Hope they don't jinx it and cause a butterfly effect that will land me in the hospital again and push everything back. Again. Indefinitely. Again.
It's really gray outside.
Got a flow book that my sister got for me. I have so many notebooks lying around my apartment. I try to keep only one as a diary but then I start avoiding it like someone I had a one night stand with or something and then go telling my stories to another one until that one becomes too much like a diary.
I really need to write. Something I learned about myself in college.
I really need to read and write to survive. It's like oxygen. And music too. I think I could go through another inpatient stint if I had ample notebooks and books and music. But they wouldn't give me my headphones so WTF.
Classtime.
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